THE DEVIL'S GOT YOU ON COHERENCE!

When my pride is hurt - been a coward, or been forgotten? - I fall and can't get up.
 
Why is this? What is it that I am trying to reconcile or heal in order to stand again? Sometimes I find myself reworking or rewording the scenario, over and over in my head, trying to rewrite history, or find a footing somewhere in my soul to justify a rising up...
 
What holds me down? Why can't I shake this and stand?
 
The insult or the failure are not the problem. What holds me down is to do with what the insult or the failure holds to - the 'I', the sense of self, the 'Me'.
 
What if the essence of my truest self had nothing to do with my sense of self, but Another's report? What if my hold on self was nothing to do with the true me, but rather the true me was Another's hold on me? If I could be truly free of 'me' - the 'me' to which pride and cowardice stick to - I would be free of pride and cowardice. They would have nothing to hold to.
 
What if I was free of me? Free to truly be?
 
'I have been crucified with Christ. I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.' (Galatians 2:20)